Most of you reading this already know that I got the news yesterday that the biopsy confirmed recurrent endometrial adenocarcinoma in the para-aortic lymph node. I've got an appt. with a radiation oncologist on Friday to discuss treatment. I think I've had enough time to come to terms with this diagnosis over the last few weeks so that getting the confirmation yesterday was not overly traumatic. I was so matter of fact about it when the nurse told me over the phone that she seemed a little taken aback. I think she was all set to comfort me, but I was full of "what next" questions.
The one thing that getting this confirmation did was forced me to let go of that teeny tiny fantasy that I had and could use when I needed it, that maybe, just maybe it wasn't cancer. Not that I really believed that, but it was a nice fantasy all the same. But letting go of that fantasy and focusing now on doing something about it is okay too. The harder part of all this will be after the treatment ends. Having diagnostic tests done and waiting for the other shoe to drop yet again. That is where I will really need strength, in many ways this (the diagnosis and treatment) is the "easy" part.
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