New Year

It's a new year but it definitely doesn't feel like a time for a fresh start with the continuing saga of drs. appts. and tests this month to figure out what is going on and what to do about the tumor. I've got a CT scan (to check the cancer) and an MRI (to see what's going on with my back pain) this week and an appt. with my internist (to revisit my blood pressure rising and I've got to talk to him about this stupid heel spur thing that is hurting my foot lately) and next week see the acupuncturist (my back), the gyn onc (for the CT results, has tumor grown since a year ago, is it truly inoperable, etc.) and a new rad onc (could stereotactic rad work, any other ideas) and the week after see the med onc (possibly start hormonal therapy- megace) and also a new dr. (about my chronic partially blocked salivary gland). Ugh, not a fun month!

But last night was fun, A. and I went to see the Broadway touring show of Rent. We had good seats (front row balcony box, only we forgot our little binoculars which would have been nice so we could see their faces) and really enjoyed the show. It made me want to watch the movie again, it was interesting to note the differences. Next to us were a father and daughter (she was probably 12 or 13) who had flown in from Toledo Ohio for the show. It was her bday present and he didn't tell her that they were going to see the show, she found out when they got into the lobby of the theater. He said they had watched the movie together 7 times and also that he figured by the time she was 16 she wouldn't be talking to him so he wanted to do this now. So sweet! Seasons of Love is going round and round my head since last night, replacing the Punjabiyan Di Ho Gi song (like the one in the wedding scene of Bend it Like Beckham) that was going round and round my head the day before (as I wrote that I got this sort of mixture of the two in my head, definitely weird!)

So Z.'s at her grandparents this weekend, but except for going out to Rent we haven't been able to enjoy it as much as we might have (in terms of going out and doing things) because I have this obnoxious head and chest cold that is zapping my energy and making breathing and eating not so pleasurable. Doesn't help that I gained a few pounds over the holidays and I really feel uncomfortable. But I won't get into the whole weight saga right now.

Z.'s going back to school tomorrow (yeah!) after a 2 week break and it's back to the usual time commitments for both of us (plus adding all those tests and drs. appts.). I feel tired just thinking about it. I haven't been back to aquatic therapy in a few weeks because the times they do it I have not been free and won't be again this week and probably next. Seems kind of stupid to be bothering with it if I can't get there very much. Besides it didn't help and some days I felt worse after going which kind of defeats the purpose.

I need to focus on the good things, like I get back to my oil painting class this week and once we get the Xmas tree down (all the ornaments are away, we just have to take the tree itself down, hopefully today) I can start my Aerogarden (a Xmas present from my mom and we plan on putting it in the spot where the Xmas tree was). It will be nice to be growing salad greens and herbs during the dreary winter (and it sure has been a dreary one so far, so little sun, but at least it's been relatively mild and we haven't had any snow to speak of yet). Okay, I feel like I'm complaining again and this is supposed to be the part about the good stuff. So, what else? Maybe that's the problem, I can't really think of anything else just now. That's okay, it'll all come back to me as I go along. Especially once I get past some of these tests and appts.

Here's to the New Year! One day at at time...