Already??

Last night at 3am I woke up feeling queasy and have pretty much felt that way ever since to varying degrees. Blech! I really thought I'd have more time feeling good. Also at 4pm yesterday (not long after I jinxed myself by posting here that I felt great) I hit this wall and had to go lay down. It wasn't that I was sleepy and couldn't stay awake, but that I couldn't stay upright anymore, that I had to lay down. I laid down on the living room couch for about a half hour, meditated for part of it, dozed in and out for part of it and probably would have taken an actual nap if Z. hadn't come bounding down the stairs singing and talking loudly. But that was okay, I had rested long enough and my body relaxed and felt like it could be upright again. It also gave me enough energy to make it to my gyn cancer support group at the Wellness Community last night.


Today after rad I visited a friend at her home nearby and then we went to Whole Foods and had lunch and did some grocery shopping. I sucked on a peppermint candy to help me be able to drive home afterwards. The queasies are different from nausea. The queasies are when you think that you could throw up, but you can still do things like drive, except that you'd really rather not be (not that being a passenger in a car on the winding roads I drive to get downtown is really any better- better would be not being in the car at all). For me when I think of nausea I think of when you feel like you need to be in the bathroom or next to a plastic bowl just in case. But that's just my own personal interpretation of the two states. Personally, I'd rather have neither thank you very much!