Checking in

I haven't posted in a while, life is just zipping along these days and I feel like I don't get anything done. I'm not even sure what in the heck it is I'm doing that's making me so busy, just life I guess. Among other things in the last few weeks we celebrated both Passover and Easter, Z. was home for a couple weeks for spring break, we had the stairs refinished (on the contractor's dime since they messed them up during the bathroom construction), we had our family portrait photographed, bought and planted a dogwood tree, celebrated A.'s bday (he's still plugging along looking for a new job) and I've been working on our taxes, ugh!. I still do them myself (on the computer), although every year I think I should just hire someone else to do it, but never do as it seems that most of the work is gathering up all the information and I'd still have to do that. No refund this year so I've been putting off filing till the last minute but it's only hanging over my head this way so I gotta just do them and get them out of my life. I'm going to the Wellness Community a couple of times a week at least these days, besides my regular weekly support group and Open Studio (which had a two week break and starts back up next week) and various other programs here and there I am also participating in a research study once a week for a couple of months there (although it's run by Jefferson). It's a study on women with cancer and stress. I am in the experimental group which does the fun stuff like art therapy and meditation. I do however have to actually meditate every day and I'm still trying to figure out how I'm going to fit that in with all the other things I have to do every day. I save too many things for the end of the day, just before bed, and then am up till 1am trying to get them all done so I am going to have to be careful not to do that with this.

I'm feeling a bit better now that it's been a few weeks since my rad ended but the reflux thing is still hanging around. I can eat more things than I was but I still have to take maximum strength Pepcid twice a day and have to use a chaser of Mylanta before bed some nights. I also have to be really careful with chocolate (why oh why does it have to be chocolate that does me in?) but have been able to taste a little of Z.'s Easter candy :-) I overdid it at A.'s family's Passover seder (my MIL makes this chocolate and caramel coated matzoh that is so good and I made a matzoh baklava that was really yummy) and felt so awful all night long and for two days after. Oh well, it was good while it was going down at least!

As for the complementary stuff I've been trying to drink the Avé stuff I bought, but well, it's yuck and so hard to fit into my life with all its restrictions about when to drink it so I haven't actually drank any since last Thursday. I don't think it's going to be a long term thing (or much of a short term thing either). I have still not made a decision about whether or not to do TM (copper reduction therapy). It's hard because deciding to do it is a proactive decision and my ambivalence makes it easier not to do anything.